The Italian-Egyptian artist wanted to die on stage
It has been 35 years since the departure of international artist Dalida, on May 3, 1987, her voice fell on the world stage and the candle of her life was extinguished, but her songs were not silenced for a single day. during those years. If she were with us today, she would be celebrating her 89th birthday.
Dalida determined the time of her departure, to be true what was said in her song: “I am the one who has chosen everything in my life, I want to choose my death.”
It is true that she is of Italian origin and her real name is Yolanda Giuliotti, she was born and raised in Cairo, where she lived for 20 years, before moving to France. She proudly carried her Egyptian roots and celebrated it with some songs, as it was the bridge that connected the Arabic song with Gharbia. She described the Egyptians as “the best people” and sang the words of Salah Jaheen: “I’m from Shubra in Egypt and his children are both tastes. The Nile laughs and sings, remind me and ask about me.” In Shubra she studied and in Cairo began her career and dedicated most of her Arabic songs to Egypt, such as “Helweh Ya Baladi”, “Salama Ya Salama” and others.
On this day, the twentieth century star ended his life. The lights go out in her room, in the Parisian neighborhood of Montmartre, to shine a light on the details of her suffering, sometimes silently and sometimes singing, which led her to that tragic end.
Dalida left behind hundreds of songs, including loud and hilarious ones, including quiet and sad ones. Among the lines of some of them, the story of child Yolanda, who grew up in the Egyptian neighborhood of Shubra, the woman who was crushed by failed romantic relationships and the star who illuminated people’s eyes and could not illuminate her exhausted soul. is told.
“My father’s time”
The relationship between Dalida and her father, Pietros, has always been unclear. She says in one of her interviews that she has hidden her great love for him under a thick layer of hatred. He was violent and fierce, withdrawn from his profession, the first violinist at the Cairo Opera and little Yolanda followed him from practice to practice and from party to party, waiting for him in the backstage because she was very touched by his.
In this song she recalls her childhood and her father’s time: “Come, tell me about my father’s time, about the house with the blue window.”
Dalida lost her father at the age of 18 and those who followed her life say she never recovered from that complex relationship with him, especially after his nervous condition worsened in the last year of his life.
“There is always a song”
In an interview with the French magazine Paris Match in 1984, Dalida revealed: “My eyes are the tragedy of my life.” The first suffering that knocked on his door was the disease that cut off his eyes when he was still in his eighteenth month.
“I was 16 that year and I still wore glasses,” she says in the song. When I saw him, I decided to throw him out the window. “
It is probably the only song in which Dalida alludes to the dangerous infection that nearly killed her eyesight and caused her physical and psychological trauma, as she was teased in childhood because of her right eye.
After undergoing several surgeries to correct her vision, she was finally able to remove her glasses and throw them out the window. Later, with the launch of her star, she was distinguished for her sharp and shiny appearance, and with black eyeliner that almost did not remove them from the eyelids.
The first wound to the heart that Dalida recorded for her through this song written by her boyfriend Luigi Tinco and performed in one of the musical matches in 1967 and after the song failed to convince the jury, Dalida found her committing suicide in the room of hotelit. After a severe nervous breakdown and the first attempt to commit suicide, she adopted the song and toured the world in honor of the memory of her late boyfriend, achieving tremendous success and occupying the front rows, but she failed to bring Luigi back. .
“He was 18 years old”
This song tells the story of Dalida with her boyfriend Lucio, who was 12 years younger than her, with whom she met after Luigi’s departure. In short, it is the story of the unbalanced relationship between a woman in her thirties and a teenager in her early twenties, which resulted in a pregnancy that ended in an abortion that left her with eternal sterility.
The motherhood dream was shattered and she shattered with it. Lifelong infertility was associated with lifelong depression and it is said that one of the main reasons that pushed her to commit suicide was the inability to have a child who would be the star of her life.
“In your eyes, I’m a star, but I’m nothing but a woman whose glory has left bruises on her soul. I want to hear words other than those written about me in the newspapers. I need a voice. Call me. “
This song resembles a cry of concern that Dalida makes to those who think that the fullness of her artistic life means that she is full of hers. She calls out to people and shows them her loneliness: “You think I’m happy and content, but I’m alone on my island.”
After being deprived of motherhood, loneliness may be the second fundamental reason that plunged Dalida into all that depression. Millions of fans, fans who are never late for a date with her, colleagues, friends and staff are all around her, but loneliness was the friend most attached to her soul. And the theme is repeated and repeated in other songs, such as “Not to live alone”; Dalida says in one of her interviews: “I surround myself with books to feel less alone.”
“Death on stage”
She wanted to end under the lights and in front of the crowd, but came out, alone in her room, behind the curtain. In that song she flirted with death and danced with him, inviting him to visit her in the happiest moments, as she sang on stage: “Yes, I want to die on stage with an open heart full of colors, I love. a painless death, in the last meeting, I want to die on stage while singing what is not. ” Fund ”.
The only prediction that was true in that song was the phrase: “I am the one who has chosen everything in my life, I want to choose my death”.